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Well, I feel a bit bittersweet tonight. In case any of you do not know, barring any unforeseen complications, I will be getting two new cats tomorrow! After choosing five possibilities, I believe I've decided which two I will be taking home from the shelter. One is a big, long, fat 5 year old male who seems to do nothing but lay around all day (think Garfield), while the other one is an 8 month old orange and white male tabby who "chose me", as they say.
While I'm excited about getting the new cats, I was also somewhat depressed today while thinking about it all, because I still terribly miss Adolph. While buying some supplies today to prepare for the new cats' arrivals, I kept thinking back to Adolph and when I would buy this same stuff for her. It's been less than a month since she's been gone, but yet, it feels like an eternity, because she was always there, and without her, there is a giant painful hole lurking around. You know how when you get hurt, you wait for the pain to go away, and even if it only lasts a few minutes, it seems like a lot longer? That's how I have felt these past few weeks.
Now these new cats can not replace Adolph. And I'm not getting them with a pretense of replacing Adolph. But maybe there presence can fill part of that hole that opened up with not having Adolph around. I hope so. I half expect that one of the things I may end up doing when they get to my home is for me to just hold them and cry, because Adolph will be heavily in my mind at that moment. They will be welcome additions to my family, but Adolph will always hold a special place in my heart. The new cats may remove the loneliness, but the love I had for Adolph can never be replaced.
-- TG
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